"" i didn't know i'd get caught in the middle ""

doing: last minutes of my lunch break and i realized i didn't blog yet.
listening to: Motion City Soundtrack on my Jango - but soon it will be the newest episode of Glee!
feeling: good!

yesterday was our appointment with the specialist. we didn't know what to expect really. the couple that went in before us - honestly looked like they were in high school - but they were only in for maybe 5 minutes. so then we started to think maybe this was just going to be a waste of time...

the doctor was very nice. he had our medical history that he'd looked over before hand, so he didn't have to ask too many questions. he started with telling us what he knew of miscarriages and the reasons for them; misshapen uterus, blood clotting, chromosome abnormality from either the mother or father, and a couple others. after that he told us that by us having a full term and healthy baby already pretty much makes any of those null. and also since our first miscarriage was at 17 weeks and the other 2 were around 8 some things might seem a possibility and some just don't.

if you aren't confused already.... so he said he was going to suggest to our doctor that we do a chromosome test and that i do a blood clotting test. both are simple blood tests so no big deal. he was pretty sure that the blood clot test on me would come back negative - again from having a full term baby already. but if it didn't for some reason, that was a reason for first trimester miscarriages and CAN be treated. as for the chromosome test, if either of us have an abnormality there its not treatable, but the plus side would be that we would know whats causing miscarriages.

he also was going to suggest to our doctor that next time i get pregnant i should take a progesterone pill and a baby aspirin. he said this is what he recommends for his patients and there isn't real proof that it helps 100%, but it doesn't hurt.


so the visit wasn't as much information that we would have liked to get, but it was something and we feel like we can move forward again. he suggested we don't try again for at least 4 months - which we weren't going to anyways. we want to get ourselves back, mind and body, before we start this process again. we want to eat better and work out more and get ourselves a little healthier.

since having another baby is very important to us we want to be sure to do everything we can to make sure the baby starts off on the right foot - from the very first second!


for now though we are taking a break, being young again for a little while. having a couple nights out with friends, and smothering Ethan with more attention than he probably wants!

we are a happy family and we know and count our blessings every day. we know what a gift Ethan is, if not when he was first born than now more than ever. and if God finds it better for us to raise him and our family to just be 3 then we will find a way to open our hearts to that and continue to be the best possible parents to Ethan that we can!

thanks for listening everyone. have a good one!