doing: work. i'm actually getting alot done today and yesterday
listening to: lastfm.com radio. Bethany Joy Lenz!
feeling: a little better but still iffy
i've had a long couple weeks. actually a long month. at this time in my life i do feel like everyone should owe me something! that i should get a break and a couple good things should happen to me. i feel like this roller coaster is stuck at the bottom of a huge hill... broken down with no one around to fix it.
of course thats just the midset that i'm in. if everyone would LIKE to send me presents and money and stuff that's cool... i wont say no! but i know thats not going to happen because not everyone does actually physically owe me anything.
the weather has been gloomy, my days have been long, my son and his potty training isn't going well-suddenly anymore-and my husband and i aren't seeing eye to eye on things.
we go through these spells. where suddenly we dont see where the other person is coming from. and we fight about every little thing. its annoying and we're both stubborn enough that an apology isn't something we just do. its passes and we'll be fine, but having it like this now just makes everything suck!!
i've been on the verge of tears all week and thats also annoying. i think my hormones are on an overload....
Matt's Great Grandmother died last week. She was 89 and it was pretty sudden.
so that made our week just that much harder. it was a nice service. Her son did the eulogy and it was just fantastic! something that i know i'll not be able to do. Matt and his Dad were paul bearers. Of course it rained the hardest when we were at the cemetery, just to match all our moods. i think it will take awhile to get over the fact that shes not here anymore. Matts dad was very close to her so he took the whole thing pretty rough.
well the phone keeps ringing and its 4:00. 20 after now actually. time seemed to go extra slowly yesterday and thankfully today that has not been the case!!
have a good soggy night.... damn weather...
