" why don't you go where fashion sitz.... puttin on the ritz!

doing: workety work work!
listening to: my ipod!! i got to update it FINALLY!!
feeling: tired and hungry and super lazy

things are finally starting to get back to normal. between the studio move and all my personal life stuff thats been going on i've just felt like i've been running in a hamster wheel! at work i'm actually starting to make progress! i've been working like MAD, but never actually getting things done! i've made good progress on my list of wedding albums! i'm planning to finish up at least 2 today and possibly at least design another! sounds like a tall order.. but i think i can do it!

we went to visit Panama this past weekend for their 125th Celebration! it was WILD! Panama is a town about the size of Bussey-okay, maybe a tad bigger... but not too much. and when we rolled in about 9:30 Saturday night the town was about the size of Knoxville! there were TONS of people there!! there was a carnival with games and stuff, there was a beer garden (duh-Catholic town), and there was a band! the band played until 2am! and they were pretty good!! we sat at my Grandma's house and we could hear everything perfectly!
my cousins from Colorado were there, which was awesome!! i havent seen some of them for years! i sat and talked with Elissa until about 2am! it was great! we caught up on so much and it was just SO nice to talk!! i wanted to catch up with Megan too, but shes preggo.. so she went to bed!! Elissa is getting married in August so i'm hoping that i'll have time to talk with everyone else at the wedding! i wish we all lived closer, or at least got together more! i've always wanted that closer relationship with my cousins-and i do have it with some of them-but to have it with more would just be better!!

Ethan has been great lately. other than the terrible two-s that show up once in awhile... he's been great. we started potty-training a week ago from saturday and he's starting to get the hang of it! he actually asks to sit on his potty-seat now! i think he knows when he goes in his diaper and then asks... so we're getting closer! he does good about just sitting and watching a movie... so he'll eventually go while hes sitting there! its just so great to watch him grow up like that! i am really sad that he'll (hopefully) soon be out of diapers, but i'll be so happy to get to buy him big boy undies!! he's also starting to sleep in HIS bed at night. which makes matt and i super excited!! its hard enough for us to sleep in bed together, makes it worse with a little boy in between us!
so he got a special treat this morning (cars) for sleeping in his bed for almost a whole week!

other than that life has been calming down. i've been prone to some awesome migraines the last few days... so i'm ready to get rid of those too.

ah well....
must work more!
have a good one!

...its been a long time coming....

for those of you who didn't know, my Grandpa passed away this past week. he's been ill for awhile now, and just recently really went downhill. its been a long week for my family-and on top of the month of moving into the new studio that i've just had-its been an all around long month and a half for me.

it was, as it always is, to let him go. i don't feel like i've had near enough time with him-even though its been 26 years! and Ethan only got to know him just a little bit! yesterday was the funeral and that was the hardest part. knowing that its finally over and we finally have to say goodbye for the very last time. on top of my feelings for it it was 100 times harder for my mom. and seeing my mom in that much pain made me hurt that much more.


this is a poem that is perfect for my Grandpa.


God saw he was getting tired
And a cure was not to be,
So He put His arms around him
And whispered, "Come with Me"

With tearful eyes we watched him suffer
And saw him fade away,
Although we loved him dearly
We could not make him stay.

A golden heart stopped beating
Hard working hands to rest,
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.

"why have i gone blind..."

doing: struggling with people today.
mood: grouchy... for no certain reason
listening to: Pandora-Breaking Benjamin radio!(i'm more in the mood for classical, but there are other people in the office that don't share my mood)


so... WE ARE ALL MOVED IN!!!!
finally finally finally the longest month ever is over!! Sunday was our last day and we got everything moved!! it took 7 hours and 15 people but we did it! i can officially say that i will NEVER have to walk up those stairs AGAIN-and actually i wont ever have to walk into the building again if i dont want to!! SO HAPPY!!
and we are now our own landlords(so to speak) so we won't have to dick around with anyone messing with our stuff or being stupid.

now, sadly, its back to reality. i'm working on editing and backing up and downloading things. i need to load up my laptop with wedding albums so i can actually get a few finished! i'm really behind on those... but i'll get caught up asap! i'm re-writing my "to do" list so that i can start on that again too! yippee.....

now our biggest road-block is getting this new place functional. we basically have boxes and stuff stacked up everywhere!! we need more shelving to store things (like i've said from the beginning boys!!) so we'll have to get that and then we can get all our boxes unpacked and things!

next step--furniture. jeffs really happy about spending lots of money on new furniture.. but its gotta be done!! so i'm constantly bugging him to go shopping-with me... to pick out stuff!! so if anyone knows a good store (online or not) to get some cool contemporary semi-cheap furniture, please let us know!!

okay, i gotta actually work some more!