just not meant to be.......

just as fast as it was here its gone.

i went in for a heartbeat checkup yesterday and the doctor couldnt find the heartbeat. he said it was pry just because mine was overpowering., but just to be sure he wanted an ultrasound. so an hour later Matt was here with me and we went in for the ultrasound. at those kind the nurse cant tell us anything, which is fair and unfair at the same time... unfair to us because then we had to wait anothe half hour for the doctor to come tell us the results.

he said the babys heartbeat couldnt be found and it was measuring at about 8 weeks. so it has been gone for quite awhile. we scheduled a D&C for Tuesday morning. this will take place in Pella, which i'm thankful for (last time we had to go to Mercy). i didnt want to wait to actually miscarry. since its been this long already. there isnt a set time for that stuff.. it just happens when it happens. but i want it taken care of sooner than later just for my own peace of mind.


unfortunately we've gone through this whole ordeal before.... so we know what to expect. in a way it makes it easier, on me anyways.

now were just trying to keep a little positive light going and get through these next few weeks so we can continue on. just like last time, we're hoping that in 6 months we'll try again and have ourselves another Ethan!



Thank you everyone for your continued prayers and support in our time of need. we are thankful for every one of our family and friends!